So I was feeling pretty good about being back to work. Things were going smoothly. I love the folks I’m working with. I had not, in fact, forgotten everything I knew in the six months I had been away.
Then today an elderly woman tried her hardest to die right in front of me.
Now, I don’t know how many of you have ever watched someone die but it can be slow and agonizing or it can be fast and furious.
This would fall into the fast and furious column.
I was going along minding my own business, when one of the gals at the front desk said, “Hey, I’ve got someone here who can’t breathe.”
Really, in my experience, that’s never been a good thing to hear.
I look up to see this poor elderly woman gasping for breath. We quickly got her into a wheelchair and one of the girls asked if we should call the squad.
Yes.
Absolutely yes.
Now the squad was there in less than 5 minutes, but I would have sworn it was 5 years. Time slowed down in some crazy kind of way. We got oxygen on her and watched her oxygen saturation recover only to plummet right down to dangerous again. She got sweaty and anxious and kept gasping “I can’t breathe. I can’t breathe. I can’t breathe.” She felt sick to her stomach and she hurt all over and I swear I was standing there trying to calm her down and watching the very life leave her.
And in that moment I had a total understanding of “the peace that passes all understanding”. It was like I was watching this all happen from the ceiling or something. I have been in situations similar to this and could hardly keep my knees from buckling. I would feel my heart beating so hard that I was afraid I was going to join the patient on the floor. My mind would be swirling a thousand different directions.
But this time that didn’t happened. My heart stayed calm, my hands didn’t sweat and my thoughts were focused. My legs held me up. (Yes, Jim, I totally know who to thank for that!)
The squad got there and got her on the stretcher. And though I didn’t think it possible, she continued to look worse and worse. She turned a shade of gray that was just wrong in so many ways.
They loaded her up and out the door they went.
(Meanwhile her husband, who I’m just going to give the benefit of the doubt and say that he was unaware of how serious it all was, continued checking out and telling our very distracted office manager about his recent knee operation.)
After they were all gone we just looked at each other.
Because I think we all realized just how quickly your life can change. How quickly it can end.
We learned a little bit later that she crashed in the ambulance right outside our door and they had to work hard at getting her breathing again. She was later admitted to ICU in acute respiratory failure.
Not five minutes before this all happened, she had been talking to our receptionist and taking care of some business while we drew some blood from her husband.
And in an instant.
It all changed.
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